Archive for February, 2004

taking a leap

well, it’s the day that only comes once every four years. the day you’re supposed to do something different than you normally would. one year…must’ve been ’96…i remember proposing to the love of my life…something i’d never have done normally…he turned me down. and we broke up a few months afterward. i was heartbroken. and something i’ll never do again, not even on another leap day.

this year? i can’t think of anything different to do. i’m still in a funk and would prefer staying under the covers of my bed all day even though i can see the sun shining brightly outside, so different weather-wise than the last 3 days. i almost miss that gloomy dreariness outside.

i wonder if others do the same? or is it just me, who thinks you have to do something outrageous on leap day? i can’t remember what it was i did in ’00. but i know i did something. maybe my different thing…is that i don’t do one this year?!?!? 🙂

my greatgrandmother was born on feb 29. she passed away a month before her 100th (or 25th, as most leapers would say) birthday. i know i always wondered if my son had been born on the 29th-31st…how would you celebrate what month he is in february? will it just be on the 28th, he’d be 6 months? or does it count into part of march? and then does that back up everything else? but i guess that’s the same question 31st-ers have with months of 30 days. but to me, there’s a big difference between just one day…and 4.

anyway…this post is all over the place. hope you’re all having a good leap day!

rain

i love the rain…we don’t get much of it where i am. everything is so brown and dry, but when we get a downpour…for the next 2 days everything is nice and green. it’s like two different lands when coming from this side over to the windward side, where it’s so lush.

what i can’t understand is why there is so much traffic…sure, people are driving slower to be more careful…but not like inch forward every five minutes or something. i think it’s the impatient people who are trying to make their own lanes and then cut in when they are in trouble (big puddle/stalled car/boulders/etc) … that’s what stops everyone else! a normal 20 minute drive home took me 1 hour and a half today. 45 minutes on the freeway…and 45 minutes just manuevering the streets to my house! i couldn’t believe it.

but we do need the rain, so for that i’m grateful. and i made it home safely in that horrible traffic jam, so i’m happy with that too. i’m now nice and cozy inside, listening to the rain pound outside. so soothing.

also, is it just me? or does coming in soaking wet from the rain…and then jumping into the shower…make you feel so warm?!?!?! i love it!

'olelo

‘A’ole au i ‘olelo Hawai’i no ka manawa lo’ihi loa! Ha’o au i ke kama’ilio ‘ana ma ka ‘olelo Hawai’i. Pono paha au e kelepona i kekahi e kukakuka wale…

What a funk…

Boy, it’s been a long time since I’ve logged on…I’ve just been so bogged down with so much crap in my life right now. I usually come on the computer to “de-stress” but lately I think I’ve been in such a funk that I just come home and crash out…hide beneath the covers from the cruel world outside.

I even tried going to volleyball games, to try and “escape”…it didn’t work, even though I usually love watching those tall, lanky men throwing their bodies down hard onto the court, just to keep the other team from scoring. I usually am so into the “Mole”…but not so much now, though I was surprised at who it was, and even more surprised at who won (Dennis Rodman?!?!). I can’t even eat. And while I used to spend hours and hours on the computer…I’ll log on maybe 5 minutes to check email, then promptly log out and turn off the computer. Wow. That’s a record for me.

I realize it’s something I just have to work through, bide my time, etc. I am always being told, just take it day by day, you’ll get stronger…I wonder though. This is some funk I’m in. And though I try to think of good things, I can’t help but think … what if this gets worse?!?!?!