i had a whole long post but i decided it was tmi and no one wants to read all that stuff, so it’s gone. i just need to say it concisely: i’m pondering pain. it’s a catch-22. how can something stop the pain when it causes you more pain to begin with? wouldn’t the normal reaction to pain be slow down and rest? ah well. it all boils down to one thing: i’m starting to lose my faith in doctors.