i actually had this post as well as the one on my other marked as private, because i’ve gone back into that rut of feeling not worthy. but then i remembered that what cannot be seen will not be counted in nablopomo. so, darn. i unchecked the private box and erased all my self-wallow. okay that probably does not mean what i want it to mean but i give up.
i need to go crank some music. except not too loudly as it’s kinda late.