last day

wow, i really let this one get away from me, huh?

i was actually going to go back and try and do all the prompts i missed since this was my last day and i did not feel like doing any schoolwork. but then i thought, what’s the use? i’m not going to win the money, anyway. i just caught up in the whole competition thing and thinking that maybe i have a shot with my written stuff, totally forgetting that you have to be a good writer to win. bleah. oh well.

but anyway, it’s the last day of break, and i go back to work tomorrow. our whole complex is starting 2 weeks earlier than other schools because we are deemed zoi schools in the rttt grant. but strangely, i am not bitter. i am kinda looking forward to it. i realize that i could’ve easily transferred out, as a couple of my friends did, and not have to deal with this extra stress. but you know what? i really love these kids. i know so many people who look down on them just because of where they live. these kids are pre-judged as soon as you hear their school’s name and are not even given a chance, which sadly, puts them back into the vicious circle they live in. i always joke about fine, they can fire us all and hire new people…but, you know, i secretly want that. i want those others who think it’s so easy to come out and work their magic with them. either they will see that it’s really not that easy, or they will be able to help the kids SOOOO much. i can’t argue with that, can i? and either way, more people will see just how wonderful these kids are, and their prejudices would change. i can only hope.

but what a break it has been. every day that i was home–every *single* day, no lie–i did something for school. because of the new standards, i redid everything–all my assessments, all my records, all my posters and signs. i’m planning a new layout for my room (unfortunately, with my health issue, i cannot move things, so i have to wait for help) to decrease the clutter, plus to make it more accessible for my challenging new student that i’m getting next year. i’ve been reading book after book about how to make my curriculum better, and i’m tweaking things here and there. and i can just state right now, that i’m so excited to put things in place. talk to me in a few weeks…that excitement might be buried 10 feet under by then, but for now…i’m excited! 🙂

my grade level has been meeting every*single*week, as well. and though they frustrate me to no end, it’s nice to know that we are all working together despite our personal differences because we really want what’s best for these kids. it’s kinda nice to see everyone with that same goal in mind. even if they drive me crazy. 😛

so anyway, i thought, since i have been working all these days of my break, my last day, i’m going to take a break! no work stuff! just lounge, have fun, paint some nails, curl up the hair, and relax! and then…as i piled up the things i need to take back to work tomorrow, i realized i forgot to look through my new students’ previous year’s assessments. i was supposed to group them! and then i found an awesome resource online that i really want to put in my assessment folder, but, of course, i want it in my style, so i will redo it. which, i LOVE doing. i showed my redid assessments to a colleague, and she was impressed–she thought it was professionally done. so i’ve been looking into the tpt site, and thinking, hmm. i DO love to tap into my creative side, so maybe… so i ended up signing up for that. and, of course, i looked up the forums i’ve been canvassing every single day i’ve been home, to catch up on all the brand new posting since i checked last night. *sigh* it never really escapes us, huh? they always say how darn patient our spouses have to be, and i agree, that is sooo true. even if i don’t have one, i realize that the amount i do spend on work stuff, i would need someone EXTRA understanding to be able to put up with that! which probably means i’ll be alone forever. whatever.

ANYway. my last day was supposed to be spent as a break, but it actually has been the same as every other day in the break. i just needed some time to explain why i probably will not make this month’s nablopomo, even though i’m signed up in the blogroll. i apologize for that. if there was a way i could delete it from the blogroll, i would. oh and i guess i could still formspring. it has gotten to the point that i check fb every day now, so i guess i could still continue that, though i guess i won’t link it to my journal any more. no one cares there, but my fb people do 🙂 thanks, fb people! you make me feel like i matter 😀

and who knows about this site? it seems hs has died down, and i’m just taking up ryan’s space and domain holding. so who knows. maybe i’ll migrate it somewhere. maybe i’ll just delete the whole thing. we’ll see. if i’m still around in november, or if there’s a good topic in the months up to then, i’ll be writing again. hopefully! but if not…then i guess this truly is the last day. 😛


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