Archive for February, 2014

what is it?

Friday, February 28, 2013
Show Me Fridays: upload an image to your blog (with or without words) where you get really close to an object. Make us guess what we’re seeing.

darn. i’ll do this a bit later. i am feeling so sick right now and just want to lie down a bit…

picture

Thursday, February 27, 2013
Tell us about a picture you never snapped that you wish you had.

hmm. this is hard, because i don’t really pay attention to photography that much. it’s not something i think about when i see a picture–oh, i wish i took this! i would just look at the picture and think, wow, nice.

hermit

Wednesday, February 26, 2013
Do you prefer to be outdoors or indoors?

i actually prefer to be indoors, but there are times when i feel really down if i stay indoors too long. i just go out and soak up the sun for a while, and then i feel better. the sun really does heal. maybe it’s psychological for me, but still…it does make me feel better.

parents

Tuesday, February 25, 2013
Describe your relationship with your parents. How has it changed over the years?

i was always very close to my mom. i’d try to, with my dad. i’d sit and watch baseball with him, i’d listen and watch him play air guitar, etc. but he was always working, and i was kinda scared of him, and i was just always close to my mom, who was just always there.

as a teen, my dad was my chauffeur. he drove me to hula, to work, and to school. my mom didn’t drive at the time. but she was always there for performances and such, even if she had to catch the bus to do so.

i actually got along pretty well with them all along. i mean there were times when i’d be mad at my mom (and she’d have to suffer the silent treatment from me) and there were times i would avoid my dad because he’d be mad at something (i was scared of his anger), but for the most part, we all got along really well, which is not what i could say for most of my friends, or my cousins, or even my own sister.

as i grew older, though, my relationship with my dad became strained. he left my mom for a younger woman (only a couple of years older than me), and i never really forgave him for that. i avoided him all the time, refused to attend his wedding, and wouldn’t take his calls. it was worse when i found out they were expecting a son. great, the son he always wanted. i never even visited him at the hospital when he was born. but then they lost him. and that kinda was the turning point in our relationship. i now talk to him and help him out if he needs it. i’m not friendly at all to his wife, but with my dad, it’s okay.

with my mom, it’s gotten stronger. i realize all she sacrificed for us and how worrying such a job as being a mom is, and how much she gives. being a mother made me appreciate her more, and it also allowed me to empathize with some of the things she had to deal with. she still continues to be supportive and loving. i don’t know how i’d survive without her.

pessimism

Monday, February 24, 2013
Do you think you are more of an optimist or a pessimist?

i tend to be more pessimistic. i know i should look on the bright side of things, but it’s hard.

oops

I had already snuggled into bed when I realized I forgot to post. so I’m doing this on my phone :p I must say that I do like the new update to wordpress on the iPhone 🙂

I’ve been thinking a lot on different perspectives. I’ve been listening to podcasts in car rides lately and they’ve given me a lot to think about. they’re interesting and I like hearing different sides to stories but some of them just really make you think. and since I’ve been so depressed and morbid lately it really puts me deep into thought. they’re so many different ways to see things, but what’s right? it’s difficult.

sigh. well I’m gonna stop and try to go to sleep before all this thinking keep me up all night.

writing

went to a workshop on writing today. funnily enough, one of the topics was perspectives. I loved it because I can see how much this would motivate students but at the same time it makes me sad with all the missed opportunities! I should know better because I’ve been enjoying writing from different perspectives this month, so why wouldn’t the students? sigh. I suck.

writing

Friday, February 21, 2013
Show Me Fridays: upload an image to your blog (with or without words) of where you like to write.

hmm. i don’t know if i have a favorite place. the place where i write most often happens to be a bit messy right now, and so i don’t want to upload that! 😛

life event

Thursday, February 20, 2013
What life event most changed your perspective of the world?

this is so cliche, but it would be having a child. up until then i felt like such a failure–i was a woman, born to breed, yet i could not get pregnant as quickly as others, like my sister, my cousin…even parents i worked with. they just seemed to be popping them out and i couldn’t get pregnant and i really felt like such a failure as a human being. i couldn’t do the one thing i was expected to do, what i was made to do. so when it finally happened–when i finally had my baby–i just felt invincible, really. almost immortal–i felt like nothing could happen to me as long as i had someone that i needed to look after. i know now that that was silly to think that way, but that’s how i felt. i think i also looked at a perspective where it’s not only me-me-me, oh woe is me, type of attitude, but more now that i have to look out for someone else–alone, mind you–that i learned it was no longer about me. and i saw things differently. i thought about things differently. so, yeah. cliche, but the truth.

facts and truths

Wednesday, February 19, 2013
Marcus Aurelius said, “Everything we hear is an opinion, not a fact. Everything we see is a perspective, not the truth.” Do you think there are concrete facts and truths, or is everything fluid?

interesting. i think most things are slanted with peoples’ perspectives & opinions, but i think there are some concrete facts out there. i can’t think of any right now 😛 but i’m sure there are?

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